Wednesday, May 10, 2006 3:43 PM
Tough
Current mood: melancholy
This week, I have just made one of the hardest choices I believe a woman can make. In all honesty, my life will probably never be the same; but hopefully I am good at pretending everything is okay. It has seemed to work in the past. The whole ordeal is very hard to think about right now, but I am sure it will pass.I just hope I am doing the "right" thing. I know there is never anyway to tell until its over, whether you ultimately made the right choice or not; but there really should be some kinda instructions to this life thing.
I would also like to say I am sorry.
I'm sorry that you will never have a face.
I'm sorry you will never have a name.
I'm so sorry you will never have me teach you to walk, or talk, or ride a bike.
I'm so so sorry I am so weak, and feel like I have no other choice but to do this to you.
I am beyond sorry that I am not as strong as Julie or Robyn or Geramie.
I'm sorry you will never read this.
I pray that you somehow know that I'm sorry and that if I could've...I would've, and that "mommy" loved you.
2 Comments
Christina Bargel
=( I'm sorry babe... Try to keep your chin up, and soon enough, the perfect moment that you want to happen to you eventually will. =) Just so you know, you have all of my support and love
Jenna Whitman
I'm so sorry you have to go through this right now, it's very tough. All my love to you.
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